You Good?

Witness my spiral. Only three people hit me up to ask me if I’m good today. I’m beginning to not be but they won’t know that.

Lit a candle today for my mother. A white one and a blue one. Blue because it’s her favorite color. I don’t feel sad today. I just feel numb. Every major holiday since her death there’s been rain but today even though it rained a little the suns out. That has to count t for something.

Happy Mother’s Day, Honey.

"People keep telling me to seek support, to talk about my feelings, but it's hard. It feels like I'm supposed to be this rock for everyone else, even when I'm crumbling inside. I know I'm not a superhero, but the pressure to act like one is relentless. I'm expected to step up, to take care of things, to be responsible, but all I want to do is grieve and figure out who I am without my mom."